Journaling

posted Jan 24, 2020 | about 2 minutes to read

You may have noticed that it has been a bit quiet here over the last couple of months. This was not intentional.

Back in September, I started journaling. I felt it probably wouldn’t help me solve problems, but that it would help me keep my thoughts organized and make me better able to talk about issues in therapy. It did, I think, accomplish these goals admirably. I also thought it might help my handwriting out a bit by letting me practice good penmanship. This has emphatically not happened, as much as I wish it had.

The flip side is that I kind of feel like I have been expending all of my creative energy there. I would point to the second half of the microfiction stuff I was doing as an unfortunate victim of this; aside from the stuff I managed to write in the back half of November being intensely personal and not fit for public consumption, I ended up not doing some of them at all just because I was all written out. I think there is some stuff in the journal that could be cleaned up and made into blog posts, but it’s all intermingled with personal stuff, and I just don’t have a lot of drive to go through and review and separate everything.

It’s interesting that this is how journaling has affected things - instead of stimulating my creative drive, it’s just focused it all into one place. I’m not sure how to fix it. I’d like to - after all, I enjoy writing here - but I’m just not sure how to do that yet.